I feel better?

I am hesitant to jinx myself by writing this, but over the past few days I've started feeling better. I'm still on the progesterone, but just now for lunch I ate three pieces of frozen pizza followed by TWO Cadbury Creme Eggs. What the what?

According to my doctor I am to keep taking the medicine until tomorrow, when I will be 12w1d at the latest (technically I am calculating last Saturday as the day I hit 12w1d - that's using my due date but Dr. G wanted to be safe rather than sorry). I cannot wait until it's finally over. I am so thankful that I've had this medication to help keep me pregnant, but I am entirely done feeling like ass all the time. Little glimpses of that (like to today's lunch) help me think that maybe I'll be able to make it though this pregnancy with a toddler and my sanity intact.

In other news, I'm showing already. This is crazy.

Granted, I had just eaten three pieces of pizza here but I feel like I'm showing way earlier than I did with Syd. We are telling people that I'm pregnant. And some people really "haven't been surprised" and I'm sure it's because this gut is already getting hard to hide. My husband took me out and bought me three pairs of maternity pants this weekend because I can't button most of my jeans anymore, save two pairs. I scored a great pair at Old Navy yesterday for $8 and promptly ripped them across both thighs when I had to put my daughter in time out at Target today (it was a rough morning to say the least). I have moments when I am wandering through racks of maternity stuff and am so tired and annoyed that I have to re-buy all this stuff but immediately I remember how blessed we are to have another baby on the way, for what seems like for sure, and then I don't mind so much. But I will say that trying stuff on with a toddler in the dressing room who likes to open doors is Very Tiring.

We are not ready to release this info totally yet. I have a blood test this week and a big ultrasound next week (my first trimester screen) and after both of those we'll tell everyone, Facebook and internet included. Some of you know that I work with high school students and we want to wait to tell them until we've made it through the next few weeks. They will be so excited when they find out, I don't want them to be crushed if something bad happens.

Meanwhile, I have to find other things to say on my other blog or I'll lose my advertising. Any big ideas for what I can talk about until I can talk about Rocky? I am one of those weird people who has a hard time just blah-blahing about whatever if there's something big going on in the background. I certainly don't blog about Everything, but for whatever reason this pregnancy has just clammed me up big time (I blame progesterone for stealing my brain and turning me into a total useless zombie).

Comments

[barbetti]

I agree, Sydney updates!

And you are gorgeous. That baby of yours is making himself/herself comfy. :)

[Rachel]

I say post Syd pictures and talk about how great she is.

You look great!

I read your other blog too, sounds like you had a really rough day. Hang in there!

[Elizabeth]

You look adorable! There's a baby in there!

I am really happy to hear you're feeling better and things are going well. I know just what you mean about how when something big is up, you have a really hard time pretending that nothing much is going on. Especially when you don't feel good. I have no blog ideas but if I get any I'll send them your way.

[morgan s]

How about some good, long Sydney updates?